Maybe it was the rebel in me. I always test the waters. I try to be bad at things. I test out people’s patience, I test the limits of how much I can push people. And it doesn’t always benefit me. In my experiments in life, I try to do bad things, not illegal stuff or immoral things to other people, but you know along the lines of being a mediocre employee, not study, or things that will push me out of the mould, the conventional, and tradition. It sucks that I tend to do that. And lately, it was pushing my belief system. I questioned my belief and the concept of truth in my life.